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Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003
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4:43 pm - Lah dee dah.
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1:02 pm - WOOHOO!
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I totally passed my test so now I am an official licensed driver! Now all I need it Dan's pretty Veggie-Tales green car *laughs* woooohhh! I'm excited :D And in honor of this moment I have put up my pic of Johnny as Ichabod with his eyebrow slightly raised as if to say,"Damn straight I'm good." ;) :D
*~Adi~*
current mood: Ectatic!!!! yes, Ectatic.
current music: Fun happiness swirling around.
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10:21 am - Damn skippy it is!
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It's time to lay the smack down and pass this damn thing! Off to take my road test for the last time! 'cuz I say so *nods* and I think God does too hehehe. *kisses and hugs*
*~Adi~*
current mood:  determined
current music: "A Million Lights" - Tree63
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| Saturday, October 18th, 2003
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9:47 am - I need some comments! :)
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I want you all to tell me which picture you think I should have as the back to my PotC shirt. Thanks!
*~Adi~*
So there they are, let me know what you think! :)
current mood: awake
current music: "Whatta Man" - Salt 'n Peppa
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| Wednesday, October 15th, 2003
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8:43 am - I *heart* this song.
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It's "Love is Only a Feeling" - by The Darkness which Cait has me listening to now *eyes Cait* But they're fun. I totally missed the bus this morning, I cannot Wait 'til I get my license and a car and I can just GO. man.
Yesterday was alright, I did pretty well on the practice test for Aural Skillz and in theory we're getting to create stuff on Sebalius so that kicks. I went to work and this girl I work with got a tattoo, on her lower back...woohoo. It's a freakin' japanese symbol for LOVE with a BUTTERFLY. Whatever. To each their own.
It made me want to go finally go out and get mine, but I seriously want to find a different spot Other than the damn lower back 'cuz that's too "trendy" for my taste. but I can't think of any other sensible place to put this. I drew it myself and the words around the design came from a dream I had about a year ago now. I just don't want to get one so soon after her 'cuz then she'll think I just did it because she did. Her friend I guess who went with her, she got a symbol for Courage and a butterfly so she's kinda miffed that her friend semi-copied her *LOL* Whatever, when you pick something from a book it's going to happen. I'm just wanting to sit down with the artist and be like,"Could you do this, this, or this??" and have them draw it out to see if it's possible and to see if they could capture the look I'm going for. I'm not sure if I want to color in the various parts of my design yet or not and just leave the words around it black. Dunno.
*yaaaawwn*
I totally missed my lecture this morning so that's 4 days now that I've missed, blah. It's not my fault..well..it is, but it shouldn't matter 'cuz I still get 90 and above on all the tests so psh! I have to go in and do all the lab crap today, that's going to be a blast *rolls eyes* I can't stand lab crap, cannot. Oh well.
Micah called last night for the first time in two nights 'cuz they were gone out in the field. It was good to hear from him again, I miss him like crazy. I sent him a letter telling him what all has been going on around here with people and myself. When I hear from him and when I don't, all I want to do is give him a huuuge hug and kiss him :) *sigh*
I've gotta get runnin', laterz!
*~Adi~*
current mood: awake
current music: total blankness now...
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| Wednesday, October 8th, 2003
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4:26 pm - Lah tee lah dee daaahhh! *sings*
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I'm so enjoying myself, it's great :D I'm having lots of fun doing fun things with friends. It's going to be hard, especially when Micah goes over to Iraq, but I'm focusing on myself right now, I need some "me" time and me time with God *nods emphatically* totally.
I realize it's been a wicked long time since I last updated this so I thought I'd drop a line. I'm currently in the campus library waiting for the loverly transit system to get here so I can make my way home. When I get home I'm not exactly sure what I'm going to do. I might be sporatic and just walk to the library or something so I can take my books back. Then when I come home I'm going to watch a Johnny Depp movie from my extensive and ever-growing collection :D Go me!
Tomorrow I have a feeling that Micah S. is going to pick me to go up to the board and do intervals/chords/one-part, pick one or all, they may all apply. I'm scared 'cuz I don't know the stuff yet I do. I "get it" but it's hard to put down on paper and my ear is frigged I swear 'cuz I keep hearing things all messed up and I can't get the inversions for crap. I'm like,"Oooh, that sounded like a 6/4 inversion" and it's a 5/3 or something, BLAH!!! I'm hoping it'll go well anyhow.
This Friday is going to be wicked fun 'cuz Chad is coming over early in the morning and he's going to bring American Beauty, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, and Soul Survivors 'cuz I haven't seen any of them and he wants me to *LOL* I'll probably opt to see American Beauty out of the three 'cuz that interests me the most. The rest we won't have time for because Cait and I are then going to grab Aaron and go down to Hot Topic and buy a "Pirate's" shirt :D one says "Kiss Me I'm a Pirate" and the other says "A Pirate's Life For Me" both which Rob has and I envy, he wore one yesterday and the other today. Cait and I were both like,":O!!!" Then after we do that we're going to drag our butts up to campus and watch a big-screen outdoor showing of "Pirates of the Caribbean"
-Amusing little side-note, just moments ago I was walking to this library and I saw Student Senate or whatever had written in chalk on the main walkway all this stuff advertising Pirates of the Caribbean. I'm like,"ooooh!" so I look and it says "Pirates of the Caribean" yes, BEAN. only one freakin' B! ha, I died laughing aloud, people were kinda looking at me like I was crazy, but I was damn amused 'cuz that's a very common misspelling hehe. My poor movie *sigh* oh well :D But yes, we're going to come up here and watch it in the out of doors on a big screen and bring munchies and a blanket and it'll be wicked fun and we'll have our t-shirts and it'll be YAY-ness to the max! :D
I got home last night and my dad told me Micah had called about two hours ago saying that he'd call me sometime tomorrow (now today - Wednesday) and I was upset and needed to talk with him so I called his cell and of course it's off! so I left a message being all pouty and sniffly saying,"Yeah, so wishin' you didn't have your phone off right now! >:O! :(" I was upset, but I talked with Dave and David last night so all was well.
I'm going to go run around online for a moment more before I have to go outside and wait for the bus some more. One thing I truly can't stand is when my watch breaks and that happened first thing when I got into my Bio lecture at 8am, figures right? so yeah, I hate walking around with a non-functional watch. It's a habitual thing to check it :)
Wooh, laterz! :D
*~Adi~*
current mood:  amused
current music: "Chariots Rise" - Lizzie West
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| Friday, September 26th, 2003
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12:11 am - Sickly.
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So today I woke up and found that I was wicked sick. nice. I was late and couldn't find any medicine so yeah, woohoo. I walked around campus all day with a major head cold, but still had fun with Caitlin in Lit and Style hehe.
Then I came home and called in to work and let them know that I wasn't coming in 'cuz yeah, sick much? *nods* I got Elsie, she gave me no problem and I took meds and fell into bed. I fought and fought to get to sleep but my stuffed nose wouldn't let me sleep for more than 10min. shots at a time 'cuz then I'd either sneeze or my nose would start to get all runny and I'd need a tissue. I was using paper towels 'cuz I didn't have any tissues upstairs so I kept the roll right beside me :D *sneezes!*
As you can tell I'm still wicked sick and I'm still up, blah. Even when I'm sick I stay up, whyyy?? But! I did get to watch my favoritest movie tonight "Secretary". I think it's a movie that people like, yet don't like to admit they do because they don't know what that makes them or means for them, or why they truly like it in the first place *LOL* That's me. *nods* I dunno what it is about it, but I like it.
I talked with Micah tonight and he's thee absolute greatest man :) I remembered I had lots of stuff I needed to do tomorrow, but being sick kinda doesn't inspire walking of any distance. I needed to take books back to the library, buy some shampoo, razors, etc... and get my prescription filled.
And Micah says,"I'll give you a call before I come over tomorrow and you can tell me what kind of shampoo you need, what razors, etc... you can call the prescription I'll pick that up as well. My dad can take the books back on his way home. :)"
He's the greatest!! :D "When you're sick you need some extra love and attention and I'm more than happy to show you just how much I love you :)"
*dances in chair*
Anyhow, Darzy just came online and I need to return to my bed for some much needed rest before my movie day tomorrow with Micah hehe. Laterz!
*~Adi~*
current mood:  sick
current music: "Chariots Rise" - Lizzie West
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| Wednesday, September 24th, 2003
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4:11 pm - My Road Test Day.
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I got up this morning and was wicked psyched and excited as all get out 'cuz this was the day I was to gain my independence, my license, my freedom. I was kinda nervous, so nervous that I actually made myself sick whick sucked.
Dad drove me over and we're sitting there in the car awaiting my turn and I'm getting all icky stomach feeling and he's like,"Adrienne, chill out, you're making yourself sick." "I wish I could just make it stop."
The guy gets in and we're off. I'm doing great, superb for a first-time testee (*ponders that, giggles, then continues*) We do the K (3pt.) turn and that went marvelous. Then I do my parallel park, that went superb AMAZINGLY haha. We're nearing the end. He goes,"At this light up here take a left." I get up to the light, no stop sign so I stop before the curb then inch up, looking to make sure there's no cars coming then I start to turn into the intersection and he says,"Uhm, it's illegal to turn left on a red light ma'am." me: *SHIIITTTT!!!@#%!@^!#$^!#$^!%&!@!&" The rest of the way back I wanted to crawl under my seat and die. I knew I had failed it so I was just absolutely bumming.
We get back, I park the car and he explains what I need to work on and tells me my "Dangerous Violation", duhr much? geeze. I was nervous, I made sure there weren't any cars coming before potentially getting us in an accident what more do you want? :)
Anyhow my dad gets in the car and I'm totally pissed and mad at myself for doing something So stupid/simple that it cost me my license. I was doing fine until that, GRAWR!!! So yeah, I couldn't help it, I'd been so excited about getting my license today and when I pulled that stupid move I was so deflated I couldn't keep it together. My dad even reached over and kinda patted my back 'cuz he saw how distraught I was and how I couldn't stop berating myself aloud. He was like,"Don't beat yourself up over it, people do it who already have their license now and then. Your mom failed it her first time too, no big deal, you'll set up another appointment and try again." "Yeah, but Who turns left on a RED LIGHT!?"
I was touched by his action of patting my back though 'cuz he's not affectionate at all, not huggy or anything, I guess he was raised in a family where his dad wasn't like that with his sisters so he doesn't feel it appropriate to be like that with me or something, dunno? I was wicked upset. I came to school and ran straight to the b-room to just bust out crying.
I got it all out of my system, prayed a whole hella lot and then walked to get some food 'cuz I was Starving. After that I went and hung out with Aaron and Kaalinn, that was wicked fun. I'm still not all keen on that Amy girl he's kinda with. It's weird to me, she seems so much more immature than he is and like they don't gel all that well (ha, poet and do know it ;)) But I mean, I dunno, she's just not the person I would've thought for him, she's very needy, clingy, and starved for affection, attention, and she's hard to get. Oh well, whatever, I said my peace to him, told him how I didn't understand that he was kissing some girl after only knowing/meeting her for a few days, but he's doing what he wishes.
Now I'm sitting in the library, waiting to catch the bus, and hoping at some point today I'll get to see Micah 'cuz he told me last night that I'd probably get to see him today when he got back from his trip to see his sister. Which also sucks 'cuz if I had my license I was planning to drive up there if there was no way for him to get to my house. It just wicked sucks that it was over some simple, stupid, dangerous move like that, BLAH!
Anyhow I'm going to surf the net for a bit. Laterz!
*~Adi~*
current mood: disappointed
current music: Ace of Base is in my head, hahaha! It's fun! :)
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| Tuesday, September 16th, 2003
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11:36 am - *stretches*
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I'm currently in the library, supposed to be looking up crap for my term paper thesis which is due in a little while, but I'm so being procrastination Queen right now and not. I need books on my topic and a thesis. I've chosen at random to write about the Vikings, but not sure What exactly to write about them, their contributions to modern day society? By researching I'm supposed to figure out what to write, that's how it goes, but what of when you don't feel like flipping through books? No thesis gets completed. Amazing how that works.
I'm just wishing I didn't have stupid western civ nor that I have to work tonight. Nor that tomorrow I'm going to be spending all of my day in the Bio Lab because I chose to run around yesterday with peeps, but yeah, I took a quiz and a test yesterday for Bio and didn't feel like thinking scientifically any longer than needed.
Micah called me when he got in last night, we talked for 45mins. his dad was trying to remind me I have school in the morning and I got slightly irked. Micah told his dad to back off given that I'm 20 and realize when I have to get up and the fact that my own parents let me do as I wish 'cuz it's my own damn fault if I choose to stay up late and then I'm freckin' tired the next day. Thusly ensued his dad getting wicked pissed and after I got off the phone with Micah I figured out the true reason why he was having Micah remind me that I had class in the morning, all because he wanted to get back online. Now I tell you, why on earth couldn't he have just said,"Could you guys wrap up your conversation in a few? I'd like to get back online before heading to bed." How much Nicer is THAT? Much. very much.
Then he gets pissed at us because we should've figured out that's why he wanted us off the phone. That we should've immediatley figured that he had assumed we'd only talk for a few mins and thus we were cheating him out of valuable surfing time. Yes, of course. right. Whatever. Be more obvious people, if there's anything I've learned living with my family is that you have to state the obvious for everyone else because though it's obviously obvious to you, it's not to others. Never assume, it always gets you in trouble *nods*
Anyhow I gotta go do research before I feel bad. :D Laterz!!
*~Adi~*
current mood: awake
current music: Blaaaahhh! :)
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| Monday, September 15th, 2003
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10:36 pm - *Sporaticness!!*
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Today was a good day because I got to hang out with my favoritest man in the whole wide world and play the word game, ride on his back through the woods, and be tickled on the couch. Arrcheesiee!!! :D
We all went to the mall for lunch, we came back, I went to my Bio IQS, then after that I played hackeysack with my peeps, Richard, Sam, Kristy, Brian, and Derek. Then Micah got on the roof to take down some hacks. Then I went and took my Bio test and scored a 90, go me!! :D After that I hacked some more and this time Micah joined in and so did Joe. After that we returned to the mall, just Richard, Kristy, myself and Micah so Micah could get his hair cut. I got a raspberry lemonade smoothie and talked with Richard about how I want surround sound for my TV :D
Then we went and ate a Rocco's pizza and it poured. Kristy and Micah stood in the pouring rain and then we sat down to eat our stuff. The dinner was much fun, lots of laughing, good stuff :D
Then we returned back to campus, we fishtailed it three times, once by the crosswalk thingie by campus and almost ran into a tree and a sign and Royally scared some pedestrians *LOL!!*
We made it back safe and I was happily met by Cait who had returned from taking her lovely man Shaun to the Albany airport to return home to England today.
Chorus was much fun sitting between Sam and Caitlin and having a ball. Cait is now going to start counting how many times I burp during classes :D
During the break I hugged and kissed Micah lots then we returned to chorus and after that I found everyone gathered around my fave loveseat. I guess Kim had passed out 'cuz she hadn't eaten food ALL day? *shrugs* dunno who knows? I don't.
Anyhow. Miriam called the ambulance and they had to take her to the hospital. I sang Blur's Song 2 for Kristy just all of my own accord 'cuz it was in my head and she loved it :D Then Kristy and I played with the handicap doors that automatically open with a button, but one is seriously wrecked and only opens half way *laughs* so yeah, we held the doors while they wheeled Kim out on the stretcher into the ambulance. Micah rode along with Kim to the hospital because Miriam had asked him to and Jade was following behind to give him a ride home later.
So yeah, that's where he is now and I told him to call me when he got a moment. Hence I'm going now, but a few more things before I go...
1 out of every 2 kids agree, Adi rocks the hack like nobody's business! :D
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I *heart* my friends, especially Richard, Sam, Cait, Kristy, and Aaron!!!! :D Derek, Jay, Rob, and Brian are great too! and of course my most loveable man Micah!!! :D
*runs away*
*~Adi~*
current mood:  cheerful
current music: "I've got that Joy joy joy joy down in my heart!..."
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| Wednesday, September 10th, 2003
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9:34 am - Trying this out...
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Here's my VERY amusing commenting on this PotC fanfic that deals with a Very Mary-Sue character. It's horribly amusing. *nods* I've let two of my friends read it and both of them were crying in laughter, my one friend had to stop reading it because he couldn't take anymore, that it was SO like,"No way, she didn't actually just write that?" I swear, the girl who wrote this is... wow, just read it and read about her OC, it'll blow your mind and then some.
I don't usually review stuff, but this was one of the first ever fanfics I read of PotC when I wanted to find some Mary-Sues to amuse myself and holy crap I think I hit the Mother character of all Mary-Sues. I swear. You'll understand when you read it. It'll make you laugh, cry, get angry, then laugh some more *nods*
What's more is she's still continuing this story. This review is only up to Chapter 9 if I'm not mistaken, but now she's got 12 chapters up. I'll review those for you when I get the chance 'cuz the next chapter I read made Will even more of a pansy than she did to him in these chpts. I'm partial to Captain Jack Sparrow myself, but in reading this my heart went out to Will at a Lot of moments 'cuz wow, he's a wuss in this fic and it makes me cringe. The Sue usurps all his power I swear. gah. Just read, it's good :)
( A mysterious young girl flops aboard Jack's ship...Dun dun duuunnn! )
Leave some comments and let me know what YOU thought of this travesty. And please, don't go out of your way to flame this author, she's only 15yrs. and thinks she's writing a fantastic OC so just let her be. She'll re-read it years from now and do what most of us have done about our own early writings; cringe. 'sides I want to continue being appalled/amused. :D Take care!
*~Adi~*
current mood:  accomplished
current music: nothing! heh...'cept maybe the music in my head? *nods*
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| Monday, September 8th, 2003
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5:19 pm - *stretches*
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Lots of crap has been going on since Micah got back. Lots of thoughts just swirling through my mind, not making anything easy. I've never been with someone as long as I've been with him and having almost hit that one year mark it's raising questions in my mind. It's like, is he really the one or am I just faking myself out? crap like that. I love him, there is no mistaking that, he's very great to me and for me, it's just every now and then I'll latch onto something he's said or done and it just begins to irk me like,"uhm, why can't you be just a tad more mature?" *shrugs* Then I figure maybe I'm just being a hardass and really need to lighten up and enjoy life and time him and I get to spend together because neither of us know exactly when he'll be leaving.
Anyhow we had our weekend together in the Queensbury hotel and let me just say it was a trip and a half. High points and nasty low points and in between moments made it all. We get there and he wants to roll around on the bed, but I'm not in the mood he takes it personally and yay. Then we decide to head over to Eckerd's 'cuz I need bobby pins for my hair and he wants to go visit Mr. Bill's gaming place to get some stuff.
That whole trip was fun and nice and then we watch some TV and head over to Davidson Bro.'s for dinner and we sat inside. I had the vodka penne which was great and he had some sort of fish. We laughed, good stuff. We walked back to the room, dropped our leftovers off and returned to go to the pool hall. We played 5 games and I beat him all 5 times. Don't ask me, some of the shots I was making I was even amazed at so it wasn't like 'yeah baby, I'm such a pool shark!' ha, no. My game was just on that night :)
We get back to the room, things start gettin' all hot and heavy, then after we got into a deep intense discussion on physical matters, etc... It was rough, he started crying at one point and eventually went and fell asleep on the floor as I ate a pumpkin snickers thingie and fell asleep under the covers, not knowing really what I should be thinking/feeling at that point.
I woke up to find him in bed next to me which I had to remind myself he'd fallen asleep on the floor so it was good to see him there. We cuddled and just wanted to start the day anew. Well, it didn't start all that good because I guess my mind wouldn't really let go of the atmosphere of the night before 'cuz I was kind of keeping to myself and not really wanting to be affectionate. He's like,"You haven't been yourself at all today." "Yes I have, I've just been pensive that's all. Don't think that because I'm not jumping you that it means I don't love you or that I'm not happy, I'm just thinking about things and it takes my focus."
One really amusing thing though is when I got up I looked over at the clock and I was like,"No way! It's 1:17pm!? I didn't want to sleep this late :(" So we both got up rather quickly, showered and the like. Then we've got the TV on, the Cartoon network at that *makes an odd face at Micah wherever he is* and it says,"blah blah blah at 8 and then blah blah blah at 8:30." We both look at eachother like,"WHA??" He's like,"No way did we spend that much time sleeping.." He looks at the clock,"It says 7:58am" he switches it to a news channel and sure enough they say it's then 8am on the dot. We both bust out laughing 'cuz I guess I hadn't seen the hat on top of the seven thus it looked like a "one" to me when really it was only 7 something in the morning, oi hehe.
Anyhow, we got up and went to the mall and hung out there. We went and saw the movie "The Order". It was alright, kinda dark and strange, can't really place my feelings on it because I saw it in the middle of my day at that *laughs* Usually I watch movies then go to sleep :) Then we walk around a bit more and catch the bus home. We get back to the hotel and I start putting my hair up in the curlers and we're watching Secrets of Las Vegas on the Travel Channel :D Then I get dressed, put my hair up and we go down to dinner. He looked might spiffy too I must say ;) We went into Fenimore's and there's no one to seat us, the bartender and the people at the bar are just looking at us like we're freaking aliens or something, thus making me feel damn uncomfortable.
Micah decides to go and ask the front desk if dinner is still being served. I'm like,"There are people in there eating dinner so they must've been seated somehow :P" "I just want to make sure." The lady at the desk comfirms that it's open for dinner. We walk in again and still no one offers to help so I just grab two menus and two things of silverware and it's THEN that the bartender goes,"Are you here for dinner?" no...we're just all dressed up to come sit at the bar and get frick ass drunk with you...yup, totally. or, no, we're tourists, we don't know what we want. hehe.
We find our own seat and finally a waiter arrives and he looks like he's been hurried and he doesn't seem to be in the pleasantest of moods which Micah marked on when he walked away and I was like,"I don't care, it's his job, I have stuff I've gotta deal with at my work so *shrugs*"
We order our dinner, it's great, then afterwards we get back to the room have Great fun and then he goes to get in the hot tub for a bit. I opted to clean up my hair rollers and get my stuff together so I wouldn't have to pack it all up in the morning. He returns and I'm a bit miffed about something, but I won't elaborate *laughs* He doesn't catch on that I'm upset and I don't know why I do it in the first place, but I just wish then when I was upset he'd know it and be like,"What's wrong?" or "I know what's up!" :D I guess a lot of times I don't show my annoyance easily. Either that or he's too busy watching something on the Cartoon Network. Of all the networks on TV his inner child has to latch onto that one *sigh*
Anyhow we went downstairs and I heated up the rest of my leftovers, got a thing of frosted flakes for the next morning and he got me some milk for my cereal, some frappuchino things for him and we return upstairs, avoiding the masses of young kids running around all over the place because there had been a reception going on at the hotel and most of the guests were staying at the hotel. Thus Micah got splashed by kids while he was in the hot tub and I got to listen to kids running up and down the hall shouting and raising heck while trying to nap. fun fun.
We returned to the room and watched more TV. Then eventually I got fed up of TV and zonked out. He kept wanting kisses and I'm thinking,"Uhm, Dude, I'm trying to sleep?? It's not that I don't want to kiss you it's just that normally after one closes their eyes they just want to get away from the world for a bit *nods*"
I totally deeply zonk out and at one point I woke to this loud ass smashing, I raise my head up and open my eyes groggily like "What is going on??" to see him doing something with ice in a bucket, he turns to me and says,"I got ice and I'm putting your milk in the bucket so it doesn't get icky." I just smiled 'cuz it Was really cute of a gesture on his part, but I quickly zonked out again.
In the middle of my dreaming I had a very frustrating part and I woke up, slammed my head down on the pillow in disgust at my dream and returned to sleeping *LOL* Then I woke up and it was great, I was happy, all was good.
We gathered our things together and we went back to my house to find Chelsea had ripped up my dad's straw hat, straw everywhere, all over the living room floor. yay. I vaccuum it up then Micah and I go play darts and he beats me 3-1 I think, gah, I can't stand losing :) Then we went over to Dan's, I played on his piano while they played Soul Caliber downstairs. Then Dana and Brett arrived and we went to Denny's. All was fun, we colored while at Denny's *LOL* Then Chad called Micah and I at Denny's !? Yes. He did. He wanted us to come with him to Club 22, a gay bar in GF. I said we'd meet him later after hanging out with Dana and Brett.
Then we head to the mall and I get another JD DVD hehe. Then we went down to Dana and Brett's. On the way down I was starting to deal with some inward shit that wasn't pretty. The cd we were listening to was beautiful and it was deeply affecting me. I was such a swirl of emotions and Micah is all like,"Oh my gosh she's freaking out!" He's trying to calm me by hugging me and kissing me. Hugging is good. When I'm upset, I like hugs. but kissing? when I'm upset? I dunno it just made me even more pissed actually, am I weird?
Anyhow we stop at Wal-mart and I ask to just sit alone in the car to straighten some stuff out on my own. They leave and I start praying to God for some clarity and peace 'cuz I'm not liking what's rolling around inside my head. Then Micah returns on his own, gets me to open the door and come out and stand with him. I tell him what's on my mind and my heart and he looks like he's about to cry and/or throw up. I just told him that I needed him to be a bit more ambitious about life and his goals and the things that I know are important to him. I mean, before we got with Brett and Dana him and I were talking and he flat out told me he was lazy. and I told him then at Wal-mart,"I'm sorry, but if you asked me to marry you right now I'd probably say 'no' because I can't be having a husband who characterizes himself as lazy. I can't be having a husband who desires things with his heart and mind, but doesn't act on them."
It was a lot of heart to heart on both our parts and a lot of things got cleared away. Geese kept flying overhead and the sun was setting so it was just an awesome thing of hope in the moment that we both needed. I looked up once while they were flying over head and was like,"wow, so pretty!" and Micah put his hand over my mouth. I was like,"?" and he says,"Trust me, that's the last thing you want to do when looking up at birds is open your mouth :)" *LOL*
Then he went to get them, when he returned he had a bouquet of a dozen red roses that smelled wonderous. Then Dana and Brett returned from their wicked long line and we made it back to their place. We watched LOTR: TTT and Micah and I fell asleep while watching it *laughs* After we looked at their wedding pics and then we brought us both home. I got home around 1:45am and I was up at 2am cutting my flowers and placing them in a vase.
So yes, right now I'm running on, oh, 3hrs. of sleep or something like that, but I caught the bus this morning so I'm wicked happy. I saw Micah while I was at the mall with Aaron and a few others so that was neat, he'll be at chorus tonight. Then I got back, went to my Bio IQS, hung out with peeps and then returned and spent 2 1/2hrs. in the Bio Lab and got ALL of my Unit 1 Lab stuff DONE!!!! I'm SOOO freaking proud of myself right now it's awesome! I'm never proactive, but with bio I am, right now anyhow, just because I kept wanting to keep going because I knew I had nothing else to do until 7:15pm so why not try to just get them done? and I did! Now I'm going to go and play the piano and see if I can find Micah :D
*runs away happily*
*~Adi~*
current mood: accomplished
current music: "500 Miles" - by he Proclaimers
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| Thursday, August 28th, 2003
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1:07 am - Kisses!
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Today's thought is of kisses and which are/were the greatest *laughs* Micah's like,"I wanted that one to be the best one you've ever recieved from me :D" *laughs* "They've all been great so there's really no saying one is better than the other 'cuz kisses are great all the time :)"
I did remember the time with him on his bed, it was freaking sweaty as all get out, my clothes were drying in his dryer so I was laying on his bed in my underwear, yeah, totally escalated the situation of it's own accord hehe. I just remember kissing him with such animalistic passion and wanting him like freaking crazy, I wanted him to eat me up and vice versa it was just That intense and gosh, so great, woooosh! I remember wanting to really capture that moment, those kisses in particular in my head because that's the kind of passion I loooove, when it's totally uninhibited by anything, you're not thinking about what you've got to do the next day, you're just drowning in the moment and enjoying every single second you've got. Lusting over someone you love, there's nothing like it, they feel like they're a King/Queen and you feel like you've landed yourself the best man/woman on the freaking planet because they want you just a deeply.
Just remembering this is getting me all aroused now...I'm going to bed :) Laterz hehe..
*~Adi~*
~"Seek not the material things, or things that society says you need to survive like a grand career, a stylish home, a sweet ride, a gorgeous husband/wife, and lots of money, etc... for what do they know of what it means to truly live when they themselves are caught up in their own devices, totally ignorant of what precious moments they're wasting trying to capture what they feel will be "their defining moment" in life. Try not to focus on what will be, but what you've got right now. Seek what empowers your spirit and helps you breathe a bit easier day to day." - Adrienne B. G. August 28th, 2003 12:57am
current mood: grateful
current music: Nothing
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| Wednesday, August 27th, 2003
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3:23 pm - I'm better.
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On Monday Micah came over and it was great :) We hung out here for a bit then I had to go get my prescription filled and we had plans to go out to dinner. We get to Eckerd's and Meredith is just walking out so I introduce them, he gives her a hug and she's like,"So, when's the Wedding date? :)" and Micah goes,"2006 :D" *laughs* I leave my package with them so they can fill the script. Then him and I head over to the library so I can drop of some books and we browsed for a bit. Then we went over to Davidson Bros. to check on what they were serving for dinner and the girl checked and said it was the Chicken Marsala, which is what I SO wanted 'cuz I'd had that at Dana and Brett's wedding and fell in love, no joke :D
We have two hours to kill so Micah opts for us to go back over to the game store place and chill for a bit. He finds a book on Pirates, I guess it's a game, which is really funny, lots of good information about regular pirate life though and what kind of food they'd have on the ships and so on. After spending about an hour and a half or so in there we walk back to Eckerd's and grab my prescription and as we're walking out he turns me around to face him, in the middle of the store, and kisses me :D
Then I decide we should head back to the library so I could get some stuff and he's like,"I've got an idea, what would you say to hanging out with Kristy, Sam, Derek, and Richard?" "Why?" "Nevermind, I see there are flames in your eyes, a very pissed look so forget about it." "No no, why did you ask?" "Just let it go, you don't want to so we're not going to." We're walking into the library and he says something about how I shouldn't be so adamant about not wanting to hang with them. I defend myself with quickness saying that I wasn't the one who decided I'd rather get high everyday with a few friends who are also into smoking it up instead of perhaps just being sober for a day and having a movie night where everyone would feel welcome to get together and chill like we used to.
There was tension then so him and I went our separate ways in the library, him to the Sci-Fi and I to the DVD's. It sucked 'cuz throughout the entire library, I'm walking and it's like I know he's there somewhere and there's this uneasy tension in the air, tugging at me. fun fun. Anyhow I'm looking up stuff on a computer and he comes over and stands next to me, asking me what I'm looking for, in a kind of surrendering manner. I think he came to the realization that I have every right to hang onto my pissed feeling as long as I wish because what Kristy said was a slight and a half. More or less she'd just rather hang with Micah, if I'm there cool, but it doesn't matter.
I get my stuff and while in line to check out my things he goes,"I have to call someone so I'll be right outside." "Alright." I get done and walk outside and up to him as he's finishing up his conversation. He puts the phone away and I inquire,"Who was that?" "Just a friend." "Yeah, but who?" "Kristy..." "Which one?" "The one you're pissed at!" Again the whole,"I don't understand why you're pissed at her" vibe returns and I don't like it much 'cuz it's like,"Uhm, you're my boyfriend and you're supposed to be on MY side not hers and you know damn well why I'm pissed!" I didn't say that, but I thought it. Instead I just said,"Well, what did she have to say?" "Just that today was the last day she'd have LOTR:TTT for a month." "Yes, she works at a vid store, that's how it goes." and we dropped it at that.
We went to dinner and it was great, we had lots of fun, laughed, and the meal was great. Afterwards we made plans to get to the mall and see PotC :D woohoo! Of course I was then wicked arse happy hehehe. My mom takes us up and we walk around for about an hour, browsing in FYE and whatnot. I found TWO, count them, TWO Johnny Depp movies on sale in FYE *sigh* One I already have, Sleepy Hollow, and the other I want,"The Ninth Gate" even though the ending was a bit wacked.
Then we get into the film, watch the movie, all the same previews they had the first day it came out *laughs* What amazed me was that there were a lot of people there who hadn't seen it yet!!! Two girls in particular in the front like freaked out and went,"YES!!" when Orlando kissed Kiera Knightly at the end *laughs* I was like,"Oh my..."
We get to the end and he's still sitting, the theme song is over with and the manager of the theater is walking around looking at us like,"Ok, uhm, get out so we can clean?" I stand and Micah's like,"I want to see the monkey at the end :(" "I'm not waiting ten million years and a day for the end of the credits when they want to clean." Yeah, that might've been said better, a little less harsher on my part 'cuz he got all pouty at me then and thus tension was there again.
We walk out and sit near the theater. Soda and water inbetween us as we brooded. Finally he said something about how I have to always be right. I was like,"What!? No I don't!" "Well, I hope you are otherwise I'm going to feel like a jackass." "You hope I'm right?" "Yes, about the whole thing." "Well, they had to clean Micah, otherwise I wouldn't seen a problem in sitting there for ten mins. for the end of the credits to see the monkey part." "Ok, alright, just let's drop it."
Oi. Then he's talking about how he was hoping I'd have been more animated all day? "I didn't realize I wasn't myself?" "It just seemed you had stuff on your mind, like you were less happy today than usual." I pause and neither of us say anything. Then he symbolically removes the soda and the water bottle from between us and I move in next to him. He puts his arms around me and I lay my head against his chest, my fingers mindlessly rubbing the back of his hand and then I start to cry.
That's when it alllll comes out about how I reaaaalllyyy don't want him to leave and how I haven't a clue what I'm going to do once I get back to school given that these people I thought wanted to hang with me don't truly care about me at all except for a certain few.
He comforts me and lifts my head up so I can look him in the eyes and he smiles. "Yup, even when you're crying you still look incredibly hot :)" *LOL* "If you say so, 'cuz I don't feel incredibly hot at this point in time." "Well, I do say so :)"
Then his dad came and I came home. I called Micah around 11:30pm and he told me how he was hanging out with Mike the next day, but that he'd call me when I got out of work.
Yesterday I went to work, yaddaaaaa. I walked home in the freaking downpouring rain with Meredith which was actually pretty cool and liberating *laughs* It's not everyday I find myself not caring about the fact that I'm walking in the middle of a downpour and actually enjoying it hehe :)
I get home and watch the movie "Girl, Interrupted", not a bad movie, makes ya think about a few things of life, perceptions, etc... Micah calls me near the end of it and I can tell he's on his cell phone so I'm like,"Where are you?" "In Queensbury, near the mall, went to see a movie and now I'm coming home." "Who are you with?" "Guess..." "I don't know, Mike?" "Nope, he had to leave." "So who is driving you home?" "Just guess..." "I don't know!" "Hey, Adrienne, the signal is breaking, I'll call you when I get home alright? I love you!"
He calls me when he gets home and tells me that Kristy was the one who gave him a ride home. Of course that just made my night *wrinkles nose* I'm like,"What did you do, call her for a ride home?" "Yeah, then we ended up going out to Friendly's for something to eat and she took me home." "Mmm..." "I realize you're pissed at her, but they're my friends too and I wanted to hear what was going on with them." "Well, what did she say?" "That she didn't realize you'd want to hang out with them." "right..." "Well, listen, I'm going to go watch LOTR with my mom and I'll give you a call in three hours when it gets done alright?" "Ok." "I love you :)" "I love you too."
Then I decide to get online, kill some time, read Kristy's online journal and all it says is,"Micah today!! Yippee!!" - Kristy posted this at 10:20am.
I was beyond stunned 'cuz if she posted that at 10am that meant it had been planned from the beginning. I get all pissed and I talk with David about it 'cuz he actually came online much to my relief.
After that I get a call from Micah and we hash it out, I'm all crying and just telling him he should've been straight forward about it rather than my having to find out the whole story through her online journal. Turns out he'd set it up to go watch SWAT with Kristy then go to Friendly's. Yeah, that's loverly. I told him as much, how that frankly didn't sit too well with me that he's off going on one-on-one outings with a girl who doesn't care much for me except for the fact that I'm with him.
He's like,"Adrienne, you have no idea how many people would like to have your peace of mind." "My Peace of MIND??" "Well, who would like to at least Be you." "I know she wants to be me, but...*sniffles*..I don't know.." I was just too upset and he was like,"I'm not going to hang out with her ever again." "Why?" "Because it's not worth it, I see how much distress is causes you and I'd rather see you alright than hang out with her and have you be all upset over it, so that's it. And besides what she and the rest of them do is something I can't be involved with anyway give that I'm in the military and even the slightest implication of doing pot could damn me 'cuz the government has their ways of finding out things." "Yes, I know..heh.."
After that it just calmed down, he just reassured me that I had nothing to worry about, he asked me if I trust him and I said I did, but that, "I don't trust her and never have given all the signs I've gotten from her that she doesn't care that we're together, she still wants you no matter what." It goes with the whole wanting to be me thing, she may admire me or whatever, thing I'm the most beautiful girl, but that doesn't mean you can try and hone in on my boyfriend/fiance, I'm sorry, hands off! It just irks me because she knows she won't get anywhere with him, but she takes what she can get and if that's just dinner and a movie as friends then sobeit. *blah* pisses me off. But whatever, in the end I'm the one he wants to marry, I'm the one he wants to make love with for hours on end once we get married :D (sorry, but I had to put that, just for myself hehe), I'm the one he wants to be the mother of his children, I'm the one he's been with for almost a year now and for the rest of his life :D He has his moments as do I, but all in all we get through it and come to a good spot when all is said and done.
Anyhow, we finally reached a moment where we both could breathe again and slightly smile. I was put at ease by just expressing my views of all. I just wanted to put an end to it and I can't see myself being all happy to see her when I get back 'cuz yeah, it's just been too much for me. The fakeness on her part has been thoroughly shot wide open and I can see her as she is. Hence why everytime I was around her I always got a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach, everytime she hugged me, and everytime she hugged Micah and felt obligated to then hug me otherwise it'd look a bit suspicious/strange on her part. Yay.
Anyhow, I'm done with ranting about that. Him and I ended up talking as I was eating a bowl of mandarin oranges, then we were both wicked sleepy and he told me he'd come over the next morning arond noon.
I got up early this morning, 10:30am or so and since my parents were going to the beach for the day I figured I wouldn't take a shower so that he could come over, we'd have Lots of fun, then I'd take a shower and wash off all the sweat and what not :D
Around noon he gets ahold of me once I get offline to inform me that he's unable to get a ride over, but his friend from Mechanicville is coming up to get him and they'll be stopping by the house so I can meet him. I express my sadness/pissed emotions to him that it has to be so ironic that the day I have the house to myself he can't get a ride over.
I take a shower, he arrives along with his good friend David who I'd say is in his late twenties and had his son with him which was SO friggin' endearig I can't even explain it *laughs* the son is SO cute, gah! I could tell Micah was looking at him being like,"I want one!" Yeah well, me too, but not anytime soon :) He's going to be Micah's best man :) I good choice it seems as he seems to know what he's doing. I wonder what he does for a living.
Anyhow, Micah takes me upstairs while he grabs his LOTR DVD and he kisses me many times *laughs* I love him bunches and I wished he could've stayed 'cuz I really was in the mood to dance around on my bed if you will ;) but ah, c'est la vie! He's going to call me tonight when I get home from work and he'll be at my house tomorrow after I get done with work too! :D happy me!
Anyhow, I watched some TV, took the laundry down, let the dog out and in ten million times, my hair feels very good today and I felt freakin' hot *laughs* don't know, don't ask..
Now I'm getting offline and getting ready for work.
Ah, my fave song just came on, HAHAHA!
"Give it your all girl, give it all ya got.
Take your chance at a second hand shot.
Say what you want girl, Do what you do.
He's never gonna, gonna make it with you.
Pulling petals off a flower trying to get your way.
Keep pulling til' it says what you want it to say.
Girl you can pick a field full of Daises but he'd still be my baby
I know you can hardly wait till I'm away from him.........
Instinctively, I know what you're thinking,
You'll be giving him an open invitation,
But my baby won't be taken in.
You can pout your cherry lips,
Try to tempt with a sweet kiss.
You can flirt your pretty eyes,
He ain't got his hands tied.
Chorus:
No chains to unlock,
So free to do what he wants
Hes into what hes got
He loves me, he loves u not
No matter what u do, hes never gonna be with u,
Hes into what hes got,
He loves me, he loves you not
You're the kind of girl that is always up for do or dare.
Only want him just because he's there.
Always looking for a new ride,
The grass is greener on the other side.
You're the kind of girl who's not use to hearing no,
All your lovers try to take you where you wanna go.
It doesn't matter how hard you try, you're never gonna get with my guy.
Chorus:
No chains to unlock,
So free to do what he wants
Hes into what hes got
He loves me, he loves u not
No matter what u do, hes never gonna be with u,
Hes into what hes got,
He loves me, he loves you not
Doesn't matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you.
Give it your all girl, give it all ya got.
You can take your chance at a second hand shot.
Say what you want girl, do what you do.
He's never gonna make it with you.
You can pout your cherry lips ( yeah )
Try to tempt him with a sweet kiss ( sweet kiss )
You can flirt your pretty eyes ( pretty eyes )
He ain't got his hands tied."
Damn straight! :D I mean, I'm going to have to spend an entire year without him, I think that makes him very much solidly mine after he gets back *laughs* Gosh this is going to be incredibly hard, but at least I have some people I can trust during the year he's gone. Laterz! :)
*~Adi~*
current mood: accomplished
current music: "Basic Instructions" - Burlap to Cashmere
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| Monday, August 25th, 2003
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12:51 pm - My review of a PotC Sue...oh wait, make that plural *sigh*
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This story is entitled: Commodore Jack and was written by two fangirly girls. We can only imagine where this is going...
This is a rather short thing and from the authors (yes, two authors) remarks on their own work you could tell right off that this was going to be interesting. This first chapter is quite short and I'll post their second chapter later when I get home perhaps, if I have time, bit busy tonight. Be warned there are misspellings galore, nothing that a little proof-reading wouldn't have cured.
( Chapter 1 )
I'll put up chapter two when ff.net is up and running again.
*~Adi~*
current mood: awake
current music: "Cry Me a River" - Jt (It's just in my head)
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| Sunday, August 24th, 2003
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1:12 pm - Justin Timblerlake and Christina Aguilera :D
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Last night I went and saw the Justified/Stripped Tour at the Pepsi Arena and let me say it was Fantastic! Holy crap they both blew me away, the dancing, the singing, the sets, woosh! so fun! :D To quote Meredith,"I wish it would've lasted all night." 'cuz it was like this huge big dance party, so awesome :D
I went to work 11am-4pm, then I came home, couldn't get ahold of Micah, then Meredith came and we left for Albany. We took a different route so we wouldn't have to get on the main thruway and have to pay a toll. We get into downtown Albany and get semi-lost trying to find the parking area. Then we see this one woman with a sign that says,"Parking!" and she motions us on in, we end up having to pay $10, but it was PRIME parking, we walked acrossed the road and it was Right There *laughs* it was well worth the money. We get in and we're starved as all get out so we grab some food then go find our seats. There were T-shirts and such for sale, but being that we were both poor we didn't get to buy anything 'cuz it was all like $40 and up *sigh*
We find our seats and they're Great! Even though we weren't on the floor level, we were I'd say 6 rows from the floor level and it was Better than floor level 'cuz our seats were on a slope so even if you had someone tall in front of you, you could still see fairly well, whereas sitting down on floor level, if you were behind someone tall you had to deal and you ended up paying bigger bucks than what we paid to see the back of some guy's head *laughs*
The Black-eyed Peas came out first and they were alright, I'm not planning rushing out and buying the cd, but their last song which I guess is a number one hit right now was great,"Where's the Love?" I think it's called? Anyhow, for that Justin came out and sang and of course the crowd went Wild!
Then we have a bit of an intermission and Christina's set starts and holy crap it was Amazing! The whole night went on and I kept being blown away by the fact that she's running around that stage, dancing and the whole nine and yet Still her voice is phenomenal and she's able to hit pitches that no normal pop-star can hit hehe. That woman is gifted no doubt about it in my mind any longer.
There was one part in the set where this guy was doing like striptease while she sang and there were these shades that were controlled offstage that went up and down over the cage thing that he was in. Well, at one point one of the shades totally fell off and Christina laughs aloud in the middle of her dramatic song then she just continues like nothing happened! I about died laughing and I was also very amazed because that's Not an easy thing to do, but she did it impeccably! To the point where you doubted whether you actually had heard her laugh during the song or not *laughs*
Then there was intermission and Justin came out and the crowd went Wild for the rest of the evening. He got the party going and it was a regular dance party, so awesome, I wanted to keep going :) He started out with "Rock Your Body" and ended with "Like I Love You" I must admit he didn't do half as many songs as Christina so it seemed his set was shorter when they were probably the same in length. At one point he got in this thing and a crane lifted him up over the crowd (us) :D it was awesome! Then he came up from the stage playing his guitar, danced on top of the piano and disappeared with a flash of sparks. There were fireballs and fireworks galore at the finale.
I must say "Cry Me A River" was his best song, holy crap it was SO damn powerful with the rainscreen in the background, the Huge heavy congo drums that gave it a more profound and heavy effect, geeze, and the thunder and lightning right before it, then ending with the Gregorian chant part, *sigh* man, I wanted to have a tape recorder with me at that moment 'cuz that's a version I Really wouldn't mind owning :)
Anyhow, the night was over and we had to find our way out *laughs* We ended up getting lost in downtown, then uptown Albany, it was crazy. We passed a McDonald's, a Stewart's and a Police station *laughs* All places we could've stopped to ask directions, but all places that were on the wrong side of the road for us to turn into. Eventually we stopped at a Mobil station and walked in planning on asking the cashier if he could help us out. I realized it was going to be a heck of a wait 'cuz the place was packed. I see this black girl standing by the ATM machine inside the store and I approach her and say,"Excuse me, could you help me?" I don't think she hears me 'cuz she doesn't respond then all of a sudden she looks at me and jumps about three feet and looks like she's seen a ghost. all I could think was,"Don't hurt me, I don't want your money I just want directions!" *LOL*
I asked her if she knew where I-787 was and she directed us, we eventually found our way back to I-87 and it was awesome! WE got back, went to Steve's Place and had something to eat 'cuz we were starving. I wanted to play some Christina or Justin on the jukebox, but they didn't have anything.
Then I came home and went to sleep and now here I am up and getting ready for work *bleh* At least, hopefully, I'll be getting to see Micah after so that'll be great :)
I'm going now, laterz!
*~Adi~*
current mood: awake
current music: "Cry Me a River" - Jt (It's just in my head)
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| Friday, August 22nd, 2003
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10:37 pm - *growl*
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Why does my heart and mind allow people to get to me in such a way that I dislike? I mean, it's not like people do things to purposefully piss me off and yet it does? I can't stand that, getting pissed in such a way, but *sigh*
Micah called Kristy to let her know that yeah, that totally wasn't cool to not want to hang out with me all summer and to be all exclusive to only Sammie, Derek, and Richard all for the sake of smokin' the cannabis *rolls eyes* It's not just her fault though, Sammie never called, neither did Derek and I just Happened to see Richard that one day right before the wedding in Hallmark in the mall 'cuz he was nice enough to make it a point to come into the store and chat me up :)
I guess Micah said his peace about the whole matter and that's that, but guess what Kristy and EVERYONE is going to see tonight? hmm? HMM? GODSPELL!! Freakin' ass GODSPELL! They'll get there and realize,"Oh, shit, we're poor, guess we're not paying $15 to watch this, let's go smoke a bowl."
It pisses me off 'cuz once again they're all getting together and tonight I could've gone with them as I got out at 7pm, but whatever, frig them. I was talking about it tonight with Micah as he was walking into Crossgates about how when we all get back to school it'll be like,"Oh my gosh we missed you!!!" "Yeah, uhm, wonder why?" *rolls eyes* I told Micah how I'm seriously pondering whether or not I want to let them back into my life. I'm freakin' selective like that and always have been for my own good reasons.
It's not that I want to come off all bitchy either, but there comes a point when you do start to realize who really cares about you and who are just more accquaintences than anything. It still sucks given that I had some profound discussions with Sammie over the past year, but whatever, if they're willing to throw it all away over a stupid substance then that's their choice and I guess they've made that choice without having to say a word.
I'll still converse, but I dunno, I'll feel weird from now on around them like, they're not being real to me, they're just talking with me for the moment 'cuz they've got nothing else to do then when other people come along they'll all get together in their little posse and go on a burn cruise to smoke some.
That's not my life and I'm sorry. I'm just in a very reflective mood tonight for some reason and I'm listening to Dave Matthews which always makes me think about the world, my life, etc...
There are times when my mind returns to many things and then I think of that one thing that I read, my life path number or whatever, that being the number 11. And then reading all about it and who it said I was and I remember reading the first few sentences and starting to cry because it hit me so strongly, it was true.
I've got such a swirl of emotions, such a swirl of thoughts, ideas, wanting to have some freakin' profound effect on the world and not having the faintest idear where to even begin, then feeling lost, helpless, and drifting on this sea of chaos called Earth. People are just too damn manipulative, everyone has agendas and it sickens me that we can't be honest and open. From the beginning we're so subdued, we develop all these insecurities that we have to go through life breaking down and breaking through.
I have few people I feel I can truly Count on in my life and therefore when I think on them my heart tightens because I love them so much and wish nothing but to keep them forever in my life because they have proved themselves time and time again to be individuals with ideas and honest ways of treating the people around them.
It makes me so happy to have found those that I do have, and it still saddens me that those I thought I did have are fading away of their own accord, but so be it. I cannot keep grasping for something that is dwindling away like a shadow in the coming twilight. I just can't let myself back into their ideas, only to be taken again, cast aside the moment it finds itself appealing. They knew not what they did and know not what they do, but in a way they also do, so wordlessly they continue and so I too continue, with new resolve.
*bows*
*~Adi~*
"There are times when I feel the weight of the world and I close my eyes. And when I feel the weight of the world, hear every feverent heartbeat, listen to every hope and every dream, I cry. For it is a weight too grand, a mixture of pain and joy, depravity and beauty. For without one the other would be less vivid, less memorable in our hearts, more like a spark that quickly fades and that is all, but with the things in life that must be walked through comes a beautiful dawn where we can feel the warmth of its rays and smile once more, for the storm has passed and we are safe. Yet, with the passing of this tempest a newer strength is felt amidst the joy reaped, we have grown, we have not been kept down forever. And still we walk, to see what more beauty we can yet find in this world, this jungle of fear. Fear which we now forbid to hold us against our will any longer. We wipe the tears from our eyes. We stand. We walk on." - Adrienne B. G. 8/22/03 10:12pm
current mood:  contemplative
current music: "Minarets" - Dave Matthews Band
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| Thursday, August 21st, 2003
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4:14 pm - *stretches*
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So here is how my days have gone. Someday last week I went in early in the morning as scheduled and the first person I see as I'm walking to put my bike away is Rob, tattoo rob! :D He sees me and smiles and says,"Hey :)" Ahh, happy me! Then another day last week he was in my store with his girlfriend who I think is also the mother of his daughter, but I'm not sure. Anyhow I didn't know he was in the store until I heard him talking on his cell phone and I'm like,"That's Rob, I'd recognize his voice anywhere! :D" I see him through the candy rack, standing, talking agitatedly on his cell phone. His girlfriend comes up, she's nice, hippie-esque in clothing heh. He eventually comes up and stands next to her, of course looking right at me *blah* :P I ring their stuff out and after all is said and done he looks at me and smiles saying,"Thanks a bunch :)"
Ahhhh! I swear the look he gave me was enough to keep me on a high the rest of the day :) He's gotta know I think he's the hottest thing hehe, just the way he acts around me, like he plays my adrenaline to his advantage hehe.
Then the other day I had a guy call me Pocahontas. Don't ask me why 'cuz I haven't a clue. I figured perhaps because I always put my hair half-up, but I ALWAYS put my hair like that at work and this guy comes in all the time so perhaps he was already smashed or something, who knows? I almost took offense to it though 'cuz psh! Just the way he said it, it sounded like a degrading fashion, but I just let it go and said nothing.
Aaron called me at work on Monday and asked if I wanted to accompany him to Sweet Cravings and hear him play and sing, I agreed and we went, I hung out with Eric, Brooke, Journey, and Joe while Aaron was up on-stage singing. We all played a game of chinese checkers. What disconcerted me at times was how much Eric looked like Michael and even acted like Michael at times I was like,"Oh ew stop!" *bleh*
Then last night Aaron and I had plans to go see Godspell in LG 'cuz I was once in that play myself and it was my favorite, of all that I've done, to be in so I was excited about going. We get there, get up to the ticket person, ask how much it'll be for two tickets and the woman goes,"$30" Aaron and I were much shocked because it's not like this is a grade A troupe or anything, for all we know they could suck ass and it'd be a perfect waste of $15 each. We opted not to go in the end, save our money. We found out that GF High is putting on Into the Woods so we're going to go to that 'cuz I was in that as well, I was an extra, Hansel, yes, a boy :P It was cool though, didn't have to do much and got to hang out with the people I enjoyed the most.
Instead of going to Godspell we stopped by McDonald's and he introduced me to his co-worker at Sweet Cravings who also works at McD's, Iyuka, who is from the Czech Republic. She is the cutest most sweetest girl, gah, she's great! :D We're all going to get together tonight and go see PotC!! :D wooh, excited am I! :)
After that we decide to try the bowling alley, but that's $12 and we're not in the mood to be spending that kind of cash just for something to do so we head back to the Northway to go play pool at the pool hall. I start telling how the last time I was there with Micah and Richard and since I'm so short I had to get up and practically lay on the table for some shots 'cuz I didn't like using the extender 'cuz it always threw off my shots. Then mentioning how that was excruciating for Micah and he would be like,"Just make the shot already! :P" *laughs* Then Aaron goes,"Yeah, he was probably almost ready to rip his pants hehe." "Yeah, pretty much *laughs*" Aaron dies laughing and then starts going on about Micah's cock because he goes on tangents and they immediately turn dirty before he can stop himself and by time he does it's usually like,"Holy shit where did that come from and I can't believe I just said that!"
So yes, he's talking about Micah's penis, just joking around about the whole, ripping pants thing, then he's like,"Ahh! Gaahh! Why?? now all I can think of is Micah's cock, AHHhhhh! Damn you John Secada!! 'Cuz this mental picture's all I got!! >:O" *LOL!!!*
So yes, when he said the "Damn you John Secada.." and finished it with that, I died laughing, I couldn't breathe, it was great hehe. 'cuz at first I didn't understand where the John Secada thing came from and then he finished it and I was like,"Oh! HAHAHAHA!" So amusing. So we're laughing so much about that and he's like,"Yeah, I can just see me, You, and Micah hanging out and suddenly that song comes on and we're both like,"Oh my gosh!" " :D Yeah, that'd be amusing hehe.
After that Aaron went and stopped at Staples, I met a friend of his that I think Micah might know as well. Then we headed to the pool hall, played some freakin' crappy ass pool, I swear, that was the worst I'd played pool in a looooong time, both Aaron and I were sucking and it was just dragging *laughs* But we put in two bucks and played good music on the jukebox. Guess what Dar! I played a Blur song JUST FOR YOU! :D "Boys and Girls", not my fave blur song, but it was a Blur song hehe.
Then David showed up, the guy we met at Staples, he was pretty good at pool, and he seems to be a very nice guy, mature and all that. Aaron and I decided to head out and go home.
I get home and Micah calls me, we talk for a total of 5 mins. 'cuz he's been picked to be the "man overboard" for that particular evening hehe. I was like,'be careful, it's cold :/" being the worried girlfriend/fiance *laughs* He's like,"Nah, I'll be alright, it's fun :D"
Then, in going back to the morning before ALL this happened, I was online burning cd's 'cuz I CAN! :D I made Micah a mix of his own that I'm going to give to him as a surprise on Sunday 'cuz he thinks my burner is still broken and that I'm going to take it back hehe.
Anyhow, I was online doing that and talking with Dave B. when Kristy IM's me and she's like,"hey, how are you?" "I'm alright, you?" "Good good, when's Micah coming home??" "This Sunday." "Yayy!! :D" "Mmmhmm." "What are you guys doing on Monday? I have both LOTR's movies, want to get together and watch them?"
so yes, pause here and look that over. 'cuz I was a bit shocked myself. ALLLLL Summer she talks to me on AIM every now and then and NEVER says,"Hey wanna get together on such and such a day and hang out?" Then she finds that Micah is coming home on Sunday and she asks what we're doing on Monday? OMG, how Wrong is that!? It's like,"Yeah, I don't want to hang out with you all summer, but the moment your boyfriend comes home I want to hang out with you 'cuz I want to see him."
ARRGHH!! I told Aaron what she'd said and he was like,"Well, she's currently servicing Richard right now so you're safe for the time being." "That doesn't matter if she's with Richard, she'll flirt whenever she damn well feels like it, attached or not." "Well, you know Micah won't stand for anything from her so you don't have anything to worry about :)"
I'm still in semi-shock though that she goes all summer not wanting to hang out with me and the moment Micah's home,"hey what are you doing the day after he comes home?" *rolls eyes* geesh.
I just have to work 10:30pm-7pm tomorrow then 11am-4pm on Saturday then it's off to see Justin and Christina with Meredith who I haven't seen in almost a week and I'm going through withdrawl *laughs* 'cuz stuff happens at work and I want to talk with her about it 'cuz she understands more than anyone as she works at the same establishment, but she's been on vacation so I've misssed her hehe.
Then Caitlin JUST IM'ed me, she's still at camp and I miss her lots 'cuz her and Aaron are the two closest people I have besides Mere, Dana, and Micah and Alicia too. She's like,"Ahhh! I miss you!!" She tells me she has a secret to tell me when she gets back, but her ex-bf can't know about it 'cuz if he knows about it then the whole campus would know about it. I was like,"I keep stuff people tell me and I don't talk to Brian so unless you're bulimic or harming yourself then it's all good :)" *laughs*
Anyhow I think I'm going to go call Dana and see how her honeymoon went 'cuz I miss her and want to talk with her :D Hopefully going to go see PotC again tonight, wooh! :D
*~Adi~*
current mood: excited
current music: "Walk The Plank" - PotC Soundtrack
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| Thursday, August 14th, 2003
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1:04 am - It's been awhile hehe.
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To bring this up-to-date. The Wedding, Dana and Brett's on Sunday, August 10th was beautiful and I was honored to be a part of it, let alone a bridesmaid as well :) We had to lift her dress up while she went pee *LOL* With a dress like hers there was no other way.
I now officially own 5 Johnny Depp DVD's :D and last night I talked with Micah on the phone for two hours which is really unheard of when he's on duty, but last night was a bit slower than usual.
Today I bought a CD-burner and of course I can't get it to work properly because that's just the way things go. I'll probably end up having to take it back which sucks, but I need something that'll work the entire way, not just somewhat and then quit on me or make all my comp progs. come to a screeching slow standstill.
Other than that I started up my own checking account, have to sign up for my road test and it's work until at least Sunday. Micah will be home next Friday so that makes me VERY happy :D
I'm off again!
*~Adi~*
current mood: awake
current music: "I Disappear" - Metallica ...not playing, just in my head
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| Monday, August 11th, 2003
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12:50 pm - My newest work of fanfic.
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Title: A Pillage of Sorts
Author: Lady Adi
Pairing: Mostly Jack/Will
Disclaimer: I don't own these men, nor the characters they portrayed in the movie, all in good fun, no profit making on my part whatsoever.
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Not that I can tell, but I'm figuring most who wanted to see it have seen it already anyhow.
Summary: Will wants to try his hand at leading the crew and Jack lets him have a go at it.
Archive: If you want to then just ask.
Notes: I wasn't sure if stairs on a ship were called stairs; I was told they're still called "ladders" on a ship, so when I mention "ladder poles" you'll understand my meaning as a staircase pole. If anyone knows their proper name gimme a comment and let me know, thanks! :) Other than that nothing else really, just let me know what you think of my try at Jack's character.
( Twilight is upon the ocean... )
Hope you like it! :)
*~Adi~*
current mood:  tired
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